This change was neither quick nor easy, but now that I have gotten through it, I feel wonderful, happy, and at ease with myself.  That's not to say that I don't still have doubts and disappointments from time to time, but I now allow myself to feel them, hard though they may be.  This is about truly growing and changing, you may or may not read this, that is up to you.  I just have a need to get this out and if along the way I can inspire or help even one person to find the courage to really make a change in their lives then I've accomplished far more than I ever set out to do.